Just Because You're Mine- by Anabel Gillham of Lifetime Guarantee
1 But now thus saith the Lord that created thee, O Jacob, and he
that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thou art mine.
But now, thus says the Lord, your Creator, O Jacob, And He
who formed you, O Israel, "Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine!
- Isaiah 43:1
What I could not comprehend, what I could not accept, was that Jesus could love Mason's mother, Anabel
I believed that in order for anyone to accept me, to love me, I had to perform for them.
My standard for getting love was performance-based, so I performed constantly, perfectly.
And I was convinced that if anyone ever really got to know me, he
wouldn't like me.
Mace could never have performed for anyone's love . . . but oh, how we loved him.
condition eventually deteriorated to such a degree - and so rapidly - that we had to institutionalize him when he
was very young, so we enrolled him in the Enid State School for Mentally Handicapped Children
We drove regularly the 120 miles to see him, but on this particular weekend he
was at home
for a visit.
had been with us since Thursday evening, and it was now Saturday afternoon.
As soon as the dinner dishes were done, I would gather his
things together and take him back to his
I had done this many times before, but today God had something in mind that would change my life forever.
As I was washing the dishes, Mason was sitting in his
chair watching me, or at least he
was looking at me.
That's when it began - spinning emotions, tumbling stomach, the familiar sickening thoughts of separation and defeat: In just a little while, I'm going to start packing Mason's toys and his
clothes, and take him away again.
, you don't reject Mason because all the dreams you had for him have been destroyed.
You don't reject him because he
doesn't perform for you.
You love him, Anabel
, just because he
Mason doesn't willfully reject your love, but you willfully reject Mine.
I love you, Anabel
, not because you're neat or attractive, not because you do things well, not because you perform for Me - I love you just because you're Mine."